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new history teacher is quite nice. at one point i wanted to fall asleep, but just somehow, i didnt :)

all the tests today were not too good... haha. got back ss and had like 6/10. haha. i think coz too long never do sbq already.... a little rusty. then did ss quiz, 11/12! :) but it was kinda pair work. and it was soo easy... then bio pract....haha. will elaborate more on fri. my written answers were crappy. got back a and emath too. a math was horrible. haha. got 2/9. then for emath, left the whole 3b blank. and then had careless mistake in front... got 12/15. then mrs tan forgot to count the 2 marks i did infront, then had a marking error, so in the end i got 15 :)

'i got 1! i shouldnt be a peer tutor!'
'haha i beat you!'
'see?! so i shouldnt be a peer tutor!'
'i beat you by 1 mark'
' -.-'

haha both a and e math implemented this peer tutoring thing. then in e math, i wasnt a peer tutor. then when we got into out groups, i scored higher than the other the other two! (including my peer tutor! haha) then mrs tan wanted me to be the peer tutor. we were in groups of 3. so its like me+1+peer tutor. then lanie had like 9 and she was a peer tutor. haha. major screw up.
then lisa came and sit in our class. but mrs tan didnt realize. then mrs tan made lisa give out worksheets. then the whole class started laughing. then she gave us the angry/weird look. then she finally realized. haha. uber slowww.
i'm a peer tutor for amath. and i got 2/9. see? super screwed up. haha

then had p1 picnic post mortem. we called ms ng, then she walked out of the staffrm without anything. then we were like 'huh? nothing how to post mortem?'. then we realized that everything was already in the conference room. haha. muffins, fruits, cookies etc.
then no one touched anything.

'crystal, give out the food la'
'oh ok...'
'you all very weird lehh... usually when people see food, they just grab it. how come you guys didnt move at all? are you guys scared or sth? oh and you guys can eat and talk at the same time. why you all look so scared?'
haha.

yeah so eat and talk and did post mortem. some parts were quite funny :)

then yeah. then went to the pb room. and realized that all 3 leadership teachers stayed back for ltc. then in the pb room, it was sooo noisy. then i received a phone call from ms ng. then i couldnt hear her coz we were so noisy... i could only hear her after i left the room. then i went to check on the removal of things. then i smsed her to tell her how things were then she replied a rather nice and encouraging sms :) (although it sounded a little weird, it was miss cheng-y) ahh...miss cheng...how have you been?

ok anyways, so yeah. then the pb room was super crowded. then zhixin came.
*opens door*
'ohh so sorry! is there some kind of meeting going on here?'
'yeah.'
'so sorry! sorry!'
*closes door*
[inside laughs like mad]
zhixin like totally believed us! haha

no tuition! played band hero :)

this morning was...
i was a normal kid, talking in the morning and stuff. then a normal prefect, replaced christelle for traffic.(ohh and there was a mini-car accident) then went for chapel. then its not normal.

helped move chairs then. mrs. phua asked for prefects. then clarice pulled me. i tell you i was in a stage of shock and blankness. and my natural instincts got the better of me. and ms bong was looking in our direction..haha. i was so unprepared. but i still went up. heave a sigh of relieve.

STEP UP to assume responsibility. marchcamp's theme :)

then went to a secret place. prefects are not supposed to know about for MC games trial. finished at 6. got onto a bus and went home at 7. grandaddy came to pick me at 7.15 then went to pick jade up from tution. got home at 8. spent my essential 1+ hr on the com. totally fell asleep in the bus and in the car. but once i face the com...recharged! haha

forgot to bring my emath ws home... argh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wq8G7wLCGCk gives me a rchk feel. when i really want to go there, i'll listen to this. memories are enough. for the time being.



the great escape. (the link isnt a link to TGE. haha)

when i step out of this room, i fall back into reality.

but when i go to bed, :)

really enjoy the 5 hours i spent here today!

GOODNIGHT! :)

i hardly have time for myself. cant i just spend this time alone?! whats your problem?!

stop telling my 'do your work' 'do your work' 'do your work' . I AM HUMAN. I NEED REST. I NEED TIME. just because you didnt see me do my work doesnt mean i didnt.
can you just stop caring about me so much?! i have my own plan in my head! i dont like people telling me what to do when i already have that action in mind.

'go and sleep now'
'im doing my work!'
'yeah! finish then go and sleep. dont need to yell at me!'
'im not yelling at you! its common sense that i'll go to sleep after i finish my work right?! i dont need you to tell me that. its 11!'

i hate it. its really irritating and i cant stand it. then i voice it out. then a heated discussion begins. if i dont reply and keep quiet, the outcome is still the same----heated discussion. SO JUST STOP CARING SO MUCH. it'll make my life, and your life MUCH better.

2012. quick come. change my life.

i cleared my sleep debt for this week. slept for an uber long time. thats how much sleep i missed out on during the week...

recently i've been thinking. thinking about what i have wanted, what i have done. kinda linked to yesterday's post. its not mechanical. how much effort put in is not directly proportional to a desired outcome. it varies. and being an S, i need stability. if i dont have stability, i'll find ways to get it. and this way to get it will cause a huge change. and being a cantrmbwhichletter, i resist change. what am i referring to this DISC thing so much?! whatever la.

i am really a very anti-change person. i want to live in the past because my best memories are there.

played band hero for 2 hours. such a release.

im kinda driving towards that direction. but while doing that, im also driving towards my alternate route. and with this catalyst, its making me drive towards the alternate route. im at a cross junction. which route should i take?

me asking for all these. me wanting all these. is it worth it? is the end same as what i have in mind?
what if all this doesnt go that way?

is it worth doing this? is it worth my time? will all these lead to a good outcome? what if it doesnt? is it allowed? what are my plans? what are HIS plans?

In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9

will the outcome be different?

almost wanted to fall asleep during lit. not that its boring. maybe im just tired. spent like the whole lit lesson, 1hr, going through 1 passage. marking out all the inferences and meanings and stuff.

felicia looked soooo much happier at SAS. she should have seen herself last year...haha. happy to see her enjoying herself now :)

maybe im just really tired after all these.

its been less than a week since i have been relieved of my duty. and now you tell me i have this duty. i really want to do this. i really cherish this opportunity, but im not done recharging, im still tired. im only 80% full. i need rest. the timing is just wrong.

i always complain about things. but i still end up doing it. i contradict myself. typical SC/CS

i cant believed how i survived today... its not bad or anything. its just packed and i still can breathe.

didnt have english during english. haha. tried to figure out or rocs fair thing. ms tan was like 'XXX cannot! too fattening!', 'XXX also cannot! alot of other classes doing!', 'XXX cannot! SBC chope already...'. we were quite pissed at the last one. SBC, SBC and more SBC... but half of my friends are there... oh wells., they're smart.

then after school, did revision. did until 4+ then went for tuition. tuition till seven then changed and went for wushu. it starts at eight.

and i was yawning during history, and i lasted through so many things. history isnt boring. its like the most interesting humanity la. but its just placed at the wrong time. ITS LIKE FIRST PERIOD. no one is awake during first period

made many discoveries today.